This is my first time participating in an internet bake along. I have seen a number of different groups such as The Secret Recipe Club, French Fridays with Dorie, etc. and thought it would be fun to join in. However, I am basically a chicken. What if I fail to make the recipe correctly? What if I take a horrible picture? What if I miss the deadline and get kicked out of the group? What if I make the wrong thing? What if I am totally INCAPABLE? What if my oven blows up?
I’m not sure why I have so many insecurities…maybe it is because I was hit by a car when I was three years old. It was kind of like one of those road runner cartoons. Wile E. Coyote looks both ways up and down the road and there are no vehicles in sight, so he starts to cross the road and WHAM, he gets hit by an Acme truck. That’s pretty much how I got hit by a car.
My mom, who was about 7 months pregnant and was holding my little brother in one arm and a bag of groceries in the other arm, looked up and down the street in front of the little grocery store in our small town. There were no cars coming, so Mom told me to run across the street to our car. I was about halfway across the street when WHAM, I got hit by a car. We are not certain where the car had been when my Mom had looked up and down the street, but the bottom line is that I ended up with a laceration by my left eye, a fractured skull, and a concussion.
The most tragic part of the whole thing, at least from my three year old perspective, was that for several months I was not allowed to play on swings, or go down the slide, or run around, or jump on the bed, or do anything that was remotely fun because it might cause me to sustain further head injuries. I was consigned to coloring and playing with paper dolls. Life was soooooooooo boring.
Anyway, I guess I learned at a very young age about ‘what ifs’.